Here is another journal entry, this time from June 20, 2011. This was when I realized that after a lot of prayer, research, and wrestling with the idea that God was definitely calling me.
June 20, 2011
I have been called to serve in Japan.
Crazy. Scary. Weird. Awesome.
I don't know what it is. I don't know how I feel. But after a couple of months of prayer, reading, and an open heart I feel confident that God is calling me to GO.
I don't know how or what all it will entail, but things are falling into place. By means outside my own.
I'm going to disappoint a lot of people.
I hate that. I'm a people pleaser. But this is something I need to do. I need to go. I need to teach. I need to serve.
I must be strong.
I am loved. I am supported.
I am His.